music and lyrics by Paul Megna I am on my back chainsmoking, reading the writing on the wall I wouldn't blame you but I'm hoping, praying you'll return my call As of last night it was hopeless I knew that when you threw my keys And told me that you couldn't care less for all my inadequacies ME I KNOW IT'S HARD TO LOVE ME LIKE YOU DO BUT I WOULD GIVE MY LIFE TO MAKE THIS UP TO YOU So while you sit at home chainsmoking, praying that death will set you free I am outside coughing, choking, provoking God to punish me I know I really fucked up this time I should have punched the Goddamn wall And I know knowing's not the worst crime it's the doing that makes demons of us all ALL MY STUPID LIFE I HAVE SEARCHED FOR YOU AND NOW THAT I HAVE YOUR LOVE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO __________________________________________________ PM - acoustic guitar, fx, b. vocal, vocal Matt Durant - wurlitzer Konrad Meissner - drums Don Piper - lap steel, b. vocal, fx, percussion Steve Salad - electric guitar Len Small - bass